Update

I've been getting loads of texts and calls from my wonderful friends, and since I can't answer them all..I thought this might answer some of their questions. Love you all.

1. Yes, I'm still pregnant.

2. Yes, my due date was the 19th.

3. No, I'm not close to her arrival.

4. Yes, I am all for inducing--but my Dr. won't until next Tuesday.

5. Yes, I cried non stop for 24 hours when she told me that yesterday.

6. Yes, I'm terrified this baby will be 8+ lbs.

7. No, I don't sleep anymore. At all.

8. Yes, I've been doing everything that I can to get her here sooner.

9. No, I haven't done castor oil, nor will I.

10. Yes, I'm pretty much hating my life. 

Everything is ready for her. I have nothing to do. Daniel studies 10 hours a day. I can only clean my house so many times. I've been reading books, but I can't sit still for more than a half hour or I start losing my mind/my fingers start to ache. I think you should be able to choose a day you want to be induced yourself, even if your Dr. doesn't recommend it. I'm to the point of not caring one bit if I have a c-section, but Daniel doesn't want that. I think I would regret it if I opted for it..but it's hard to imagine anything that gets her here being a regret.

Pregnancy has been the most emotionally and physically exhausting thing that I've ever done. Mostly emotionally. I've gotten used to the constant throbbing/stabbing pain in my leg/back thats been there since 17 weeks. I've gotten used to not sleeping..after all, when she does come I wont be sleeping much anyways, right? Maybe that's a very very very disguised blessing. I have not and will never get used to feeling obese. I'll never get used to t-shirts being tight. I want to burn the shirts I've been wearing for the past 9 months. Maybe I'll just throw away my whole wardrobe when she's finally here and consider my new one my "push present" from D. (Just heard about "push presents" by the way, and am totally using that excuse for something good). I used to be worried about labor..I'm so beyond past that. Everytime I feel something new and painful in my stomach, I get so excited and just want the pain to increase in the hopes that it will lead to a happy end result. Then it ends. And I cry. (Again.) 

I'm so ready for her to be here. I never thought I would go past my due date. How people have like 10 children is beyond me. I tell Daniel he better love this one..we'll see about another one in like 5 years when my memory has been magically erased from what this pregnancy has entailed. I'm a little bitter/frustrated/disappointed if you can't tell. Maybe my mood will pick up before next Tuesday..but I'm not planning on it.

I have another appointment Tuesday morning, and will be induced Tuesday night. If my Dr. tries (keyword) to tell me that I'm still not ready, I will opt to have a c-section. I can and will not go past 1 week overdue. But I will be so upset she made me go an extra week if I ended up with a c-section anyways.

I appreciate all of the questions and support from everyone..really. It means alot. If I don't respond, it's simply because I am so tired of saying there has been no progress. I'll post as soon as she arrives..promise! Thanks for your love and support! Cheers to a healthy baby girl arriving on her own this weekend! (I can hope, right?)